cooked dinner with my bro last night. reminded me so much of the days i spent in cph, planning for my own meals, buying groceries, etc etc. sometimes i kinda wish i stay alone so that i can do all these myself and force myself to be more independent. of cos with my mum at home, there are a lot of things that we dun have to worry about, but sometimes being over-reliant is also not healthy. maybe it's better to go thru a bit of hardship to understand how tough things can get when you stay alone.
i had fun for more than a week already. and started watching another taiwan drama that kept me occupied for 2 full days. haha. always end up thinking too much when i watch all these dramas; sometimes i feel so sad for the leads that my stomach will feel the funny sour feeling. but ah well, idol dramas are filmed to make you feel that way lar. their plots are really too idealised already.
gonna have tuition on mon tues wed fri sat. wonderful rite. must compensate for the days i won't have tuition cos of my hong kong trip. just hope i'll spend the rest of my time studying for real estate and doing dprm report. JIAYOU!
Friday, April 23, 2010
insulted again...
ytd wasn't a very happy day. i woke up in the morning cos of a phone call, and it was the phone call i've been waiting for before i accepted the internship offer. ah well. i called cso and felt a little insulted when she said it's not like the other coy is offering a frontline job, BUT HELLO OPS IS MY INTEREST, NOT THE FRONTLINE. you are implying that i can't get the frontline job isn't it? i am deliberately looking for an ops job, and naturally i would like the job when i get it.
i dun understand why everybody, including the cso, thinks that EVERYONE wants the frontline job in a bank. and everything else, like ops, is the saigang job that NOBODY wants. it's seriously an insult when you think that i want a frontline job and i can't get it. WTF. you are supposed to be the professionals, mind you.
maybe i'm a little elitist when it comes to such stuff, but i hate it when everybody overgeneralise about what kind of job is superior to others. so people looking for ops jobs are inferior? perhaps YOU guys should learn to be less elitist, seriously.
looking for internship is already such a painful thing, can you imagine next year when we have to look for a full-time job? sigh...the world isn't a pretty place at all.
you know, after being insulted and humiliated by the stupid interviewer, i kinda have no qualms about applying for jobs and going for interviews already. if interviewers want us to conceal our weaknesses, fine i'll do it. i guess there's really no incentive to be so honest. interviewers will always discount your abilities when they judge you. and one is always better off presenting an inflated view so that they can get a realistic view of you after they discount.
so ironic, i become disillusioned even before i step into the workforce.
have been doing nothing ever since my parents went to taiwan. ktv with my bro, jiayan and gui liang on sat, mon went to watch monga, arcade, dinner and then joce's place with xumao, joce and andrew. tues had meeting, then interview again. wed met ja and marcus at orchard. ytd was just tuition. and i've also been clearing my HUGE backlog of variety shows. hahaha. i still have 2 modules left, but i act as if i got nothing left. heh.
and because my parents are not in s'pore, we've been either cooking instant noodles or going to ubi to dabao. meals are always a problem when my parents are overseas.
i can't wait for hongkong man. and going to macau with ja and marcus too. just want to enjoy before internship starts. =D just hope the money i earn from my tuition and internship are sufficient to cover all the trips i'm making. but bangkok is so dangerous now, maybe we should seriously consider changing location.
ok back to my variety shows. how slack can i get. lets just hope i won't screw up my real estate.
i dun understand why everybody, including the cso, thinks that EVERYONE wants the frontline job in a bank. and everything else, like ops, is the saigang job that NOBODY wants. it's seriously an insult when you think that i want a frontline job and i can't get it. WTF. you are supposed to be the professionals, mind you.
maybe i'm a little elitist when it comes to such stuff, but i hate it when everybody overgeneralise about what kind of job is superior to others. so people looking for ops jobs are inferior? perhaps YOU guys should learn to be less elitist, seriously.
looking for internship is already such a painful thing, can you imagine next year when we have to look for a full-time job? sigh...the world isn't a pretty place at all.
you know, after being insulted and humiliated by the stupid interviewer, i kinda have no qualms about applying for jobs and going for interviews already. if interviewers want us to conceal our weaknesses, fine i'll do it. i guess there's really no incentive to be so honest. interviewers will always discount your abilities when they judge you. and one is always better off presenting an inflated view so that they can get a realistic view of you after they discount.
so ironic, i become disillusioned even before i step into the workforce.
have been doing nothing ever since my parents went to taiwan. ktv with my bro, jiayan and gui liang on sat, mon went to watch monga, arcade, dinner and then joce's place with xumao, joce and andrew. tues had meeting, then interview again. wed met ja and marcus at orchard. ytd was just tuition. and i've also been clearing my HUGE backlog of variety shows. hahaha. i still have 2 modules left, but i act as if i got nothing left. heh.
and because my parents are not in s'pore, we've been either cooking instant noodles or going to ubi to dabao. meals are always a problem when my parents are overseas.
i can't wait for hongkong man. and going to macau with ja and marcus too. just want to enjoy before internship starts. =D just hope the money i earn from my tuition and internship are sufficient to cover all the trips i'm making. but bangkok is so dangerous now, maybe we should seriously consider changing location.
ok back to my variety shows. how slack can i get. lets just hope i won't screw up my real estate.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
双鱼座(Pisces)
sorry a bit long, but i think it's really accurate. too many things that i know of myself that sometimes i just cannot put it down in words. wow. and so it's really possible to categorize people into 12 groups ah. haha!
看过很多关于双鱼的各种传说，分析，解释。似乎无一例外的把双鱼当作了一个女人的星座，动不动就是流眼泪，唉声叹气。可惜可叹，如果双鱼真的只是这样的一个星座，那么可以说没有一个人愿意去做双鱼，而历史上也不会有什么著名的双鱼人物了。
最本质的部分：思考
双鱼座的最本质特点是什么？善良？懦弱？温柔？不是，我告诉你，是思考（在很多情况下，是过多的思考）。是的，双鱼座的一切特性，都来自于他过多的思考，或许世上没有第二个星座比双鱼座更能洞察别人的心理，更能分析事情的本质。你可以称之为敏感，但是一旦这种敏感能够正确的使用，那么没有人能比双鱼座更快的学会人情事故，在这一方面，有一个双鱼座的伟人做的尤其出色，他的名字是周恩来。因为思考的太多，所以双鱼座的人就算不是真正善良的，也至少是表面善良的。对于双鱼来说，善良与其说是本质，不如说是双鱼喜欢的一种生活方式，以善良的方式活着，是轻松而又受人尊敬的，一般的双鱼座很早就能洞察到这一点。再谈谈温柔，这一点，不管是哪篇文章，都不会忘了提双鱼座的温柔。是的，双鱼的确是温柔的。因为双鱼总能敏感的体会到对方的细微变化，时刻了解到对方心意的转变，表现在行动上，就是能尽快的知道，什么时候应该为女孩披上自己的外衣，什么时候应该停下手里的活，转过身去和女友好好的说话。
与众不同的部分：信仰
双鱼的信仰就是没有信仰！在双鱼的世界里面，没有绝对的对和错，如果发生了一件事，他第一件做的事情是去理解这件事，去分析这件事，而不是去判断这件事是对的还是错的。 下面引用一段话说明双鱼的这个特点： '鱼座男人没有偏见，没有亲自穿著鹿皮走几哩路，他不会评断印地安人；没有试试赤脚走路，他也不会评断裸体主义者。甚至这些做了，他还是会满心谅解而不会过于批评。他很少冷酷的指控，倒是每每温暖的忍耐，他甚至会试试了解他的岳母，天底下有几个男人能这样？海王子拥有罕见的同情精神，他的朋友向他吐露秘密而从不担忧会把他吓著，要吓到鱼起码需要两吨以上的炸弹。如果你和我以及你的鱼儿三人同坐一室，一个男人走进来告诉我们他有些担忧，因为他重婚，在四个州各有一个老婆，你可能眼睛瞪得大大瞧他，冒著火，心想监狱是最适合他的地方，我可能鄙夷的说他是个卑鄙的流氓，但你的鱼儿很可能问：'那四州？你爱不爱她们其中任何一个？'鱼很好奇，但防震。对他来说，这个家伙需要一缸子同情以及好得要命的律师。' 有一位伟人利用了这点特性，结果成就了科学史上的神话，他就是爱因斯坦。
双鱼的致命缺点：懦弱
现实中的双鱼座确实给人太多的失望，懦弱，多疑，自卑，优柔寡断，没有主见.....一个双鱼座或许没有上面全部的特点，但至少会有一，二个。就算是伟大如周恩来，有时候难免有些优柔寡断和没有主见，当然，这种时候不多。造成双鱼座优柔寡断的原因很简单。因为同样一个选择，在一个射手看来，只需要考虑2样东西，但是在双鱼看来，却需要考虑10样东西，因为他想的实在是太多了。简单的说一句话，双鱼都会想到它会给周围的人带来多少种不同的影响，它会让人对自己有怎么样的看法，会不会造成误解。（虽然很多时候，双鱼会冲动的把一些话脱口而出） 至于多疑，这点和自卑联系的比较紧密。虽然双鱼座能轻易的了解对方的意图，看透事情的真相，但是却往往不能坚持住自己的观点，这种不能坚持大多数是因为双鱼座自己不愿接受这个事实，也有很多时候是因为双鱼对自己不够自信。关于前一点，比较突出的一个例子是，双鱼座的女孩不到男孩子直截了当的告诉她，他不爱她了，女孩就总是还抱有一线希望，虽然女孩心里明白的很。懦弱呢？关于这点，和信仰联系在一起。你一定觉得很奇怪，懦弱和信仰又有什么关系呢？信仰是种很可怕的力量，他可以让一个人做出平时不敢做的事情，拥有不该拥有的勇气，牺牲不该牺牲的东西。而双鱼恰恰是没有一丁点信仰的，就算有，也不过是为了给生活加一点调味剂，或是给自己找一个避难所。对于双鱼来说，自己能过舒适，安稳的日子，比什么都重要。富贵如浮云，最想的开这点的就是双鱼座了。至于爱国什么的，酒饱饭足的双鱼可以慷慨激昂，也会不惜重金施于，但是只是建立在自己有好日子过的前提下。接下来，可以解释下双鱼的懦弱了。只要能让自己和爱人平平安安，有什么不可以忍受的呢？什么尊严，什么气节，见鬼去吧。所以只要不把双鱼逼到绝境，你尽可以嘲弄双鱼的懦弱。每条鱼的忍受范围都不同，但一般都比正常人多那么一点点。但是如果你不小心让一条鱼觉得无路可走了，那么你真的要小心了。鱼可以践踏人间一切法律，无视所有道理，更不会考虑自己的尊严和人格。你务必要相信这一点，虽然这种时候很少，但那只不过是因为上帝不想让人们经常看到地狱的惨状。
双鱼的最大优点：感情
与其说双鱼是个为爱情而活的星座，不如说双鱼是个为感情而活的星座。对于双鱼来说，世界上最重要的东西是感情，一条精神上满足的鱼，可以没有其他东西，就已经是最幸福的人（当然，绝大多数情况下，没有其他东西，很难精神上满足）。任何感情对于双鱼来说都是重要的，爱情很重要，但不见得会比亲情更重要，在双鱼的眼中。对于鱼来说，感情是单纯的，是单独的。鱼可以原谅对方的一切，只要那个人是真心对他好的。你可以十恶不赦，可以吃喝嫖赌，可以之前是人尽可夫的妓女，可以是个卑鄙无耻的骗子，都可以原谅，只要鱼能确定你是真心的喜欢他，对他好。但是请注意一点，大部分的鱼都比你聪明，不要以为你的小伎俩可以骗到鱼，你是不是真心喜欢他，他比谁都清楚。对于一个男孩子来说，双鱼女孩能给你对于一个女孩子想要的一切，温柔，爱你不顾一切，可爱（很多时候是装的，鱼大多数是很聪明的)，体贴..... 对于一个女孩子来说，双鱼男孩....嗯..... 看你的运气了，如果你遇到的鱼是个没有志气，不想做事，玩玩乐乐的鱼，而且他已经25岁左右了，那么好心的提醒你，还是尽早离开他吧。除非你是个富婆，或者你只是找个情人（没有人比双鱼更适合做情人了：安全快乐而无副作用）。否则，你会经历世间最凄凉的婚姻和生活，阿门................ 那么如果你遇到的鱼是有事业心，能上进，肯做事的鱼，或者干脆就是事业有成的鱼，那么真的是恭喜你，你是千万少女中最幸运的一个，再挑剔的女人也无法对一个有上进心有事业的鱼有更多的要求了。你可以得到世界上一切的温柔和快乐，包括用钱买的到的和用钱买不到的，鱼很乐意把他的一切奉献给他爱的人，看到他爱的人开心，他会更开心。大部分的鱼的'一切'仅仅只有感情，而没有物质，但是我们现在讨论的是最优秀的那种鱼，那种能随时把名望和财富送给你的鱼，现在你知道你有多幸运了吧。
提到感情不得不提的：公平
很奇怪吗？公平对于双鱼来说，是个很重要的单词。双鱼没有普遍意义上的价值观，是非观，你不能用这件事这样做是对的，那样做是错的来说服一个双鱼座。永远记住，鱼的世界里很少有对错。那么鱼又是怎么来处理他和别人（尤其是爱人的关系）呢？就是公平。如果鱼曾经有过十几，二十个女朋友，那么他就不会在意你以前有过多少个男朋友，如果鱼一个不小心跑出去玩了一夜情，那么你一夜情的时候，他也会选择无所谓好吧，就算你的鱼纯情的一塌糊涂，你是他（她）的第一次，他也可以原谅你的曾经花心，一时花心，可能会的花心，只要你能用足够的关心和真心的喜欢弥补。鱼大致兑换了下你的关心（兑换比例只有天知道了，呵呵），如果觉得双方大致公平的（相对于他对于你的感情付出），那么他就无所谓，就会原谅你。所以和鱼相处是件很简单的事情，只要你能保证你给他的和他为你付出的差不多多，就可以了。至于伦理道德嘛...嗯，讲真的，鱼从来不是教条主义者。反过来，如果你让鱼觉得你对他的关心不够多，对他的爱不够多（不够多是指没有他给你的多），那么鱼会在痛苦之后，也相应的减少对你的关心和爱，不要怀疑，这方面，鱼比谁都表现的现实和斤斤计较。
感情中的完美主义
鱼在意的东西很少，所以很不幸，鱼对于他在意的东西就是完美主义者的态度。对于鱼来说，完美的情人不是忠贞不二的情人，不是事业爱情兼顾的情人，也不是外形完美的情人。鱼要求的是'完美的爱'。你可以不经常说我爱你，但是你说的时候，一定要是真心实意。你可以很少陪他逛街，但是你陪的时候，一定要是真的开开心心。你也可以对他说很少的情话，但是你要保证，你对别人说的情话更少，而且你对他说的是真心的话。对于鱼来说，欺骗和做作是最不可原谅的。很多人以为简简单单的对鱼说几句我爱你，固定性的发些短信问候鱼，经常为鱼买些好东西就能让鱼觉得被爱了。真不幸，大部分鱼都聪明过了头，一般都能轻松辨别那些举动是真心的，那些不过是手段（如果你曾经用这些手段征服过双鱼女生，也别得意，只不过是双鱼女生比男生更难以拒绝别人而已）。所以，请诚实一点对待鱼，爱他多少就给他多少，他也会给你同样多。这至少比他生你的气好的多，不是吗？
双鱼真的浪漫吗？
所有的星座解释都会说双鱼是浪漫的，但是所有和双鱼（特别是双鱼男生，一般浪漫都是指男生做的事情）接触过的人，都往往感觉不到双鱼的浪漫，到底是为什么呢？难道双鱼并不浪漫？ 我给你个肯定的答案，双鱼绝对浪漫，他脑子里面的浪漫点子不仅包含了所有好莱坞大片的经典场景，还有更多他自己的原创镜头，他时不时的都在幻想浪漫的场面，一个鱼可能在他18的时候就开始想他30岁结婚的布置。那么为什么现实中是两样呢？因为2点，自卑和善良。前一点很好理解，大部分的浪漫需要自信。很多时候，不是鱼不想浪漫，而是不好意思和没胆子那么做，你能理解是吧，呵呵。那么自信的鱼呢？为什么他也不浪漫？因为他没有遇到合适的人，因为他善良。双鱼的爱情大部分是有些被动的。鱼总是轻易的喜欢上一个女孩子（注意，我用的单词是喜欢），然后开始和这个女孩开始交往，然后十有八九，会发现这个女孩不是能给自己完美的爱的女孩（这是肯定的，遇到最合适自己的人哪有那么容易），鱼很现实的知道，他和这个女孩不可能有将来的，2个人能拥有只能是一段回忆。那么对鱼来说，绝大部分的情话都会说不出口，因为鱼自己知道这些话都是骗人的，很多浪漫的举动做不出来，因为鱼不敢让女孩陷的太深，怕分手的那一天女孩太伤心。很多人说处女，金牛的人想的多，其实鱼想的并不比他们少，只不过犹犹豫豫又舍不得的鱼，就算明了的知道和女孩没有将来，也不会点破，只会静静的维持，享受拥有的每一天。但是这样的情况下，鱼的善良就让鱼忍住了很多浪漫的情话和行动。我这么说是不是显的鱼很高尚？呵呵，没有什么真正高尚的人。鱼能如此的为女孩着想，是因为这么做能让鱼觉得自己很伟大，有一种悲剧式的美感，鱼愿意让自己沉浸在这种自我的意淫中。当然，这样至少比不顾别人的死活，只图自己开心要好的多是不是？所以还是应该为鱼们鼓鼓掌的。所以，如果有一天，你看到一条浪漫无比的鱼，不要怀疑，他已经认定你们有个美好的未来，他已经知道他不会给你太多的伤心了，那你还犹豫什么？上去拥抱你的幸福吧。
结语：什么样是好的双鱼？
双鱼有很多缺点，但是大多数都可以原谅。除了2条，懒惰和犹豫。而双鱼要成为一条好鱼，所需要的东西很简单，事业。其实不用去提醒鱼们其他的事情了，他们自己都能想明白。只需能保证鱼能稳步进行他们的事业就可以了。一旦鱼用心去赚钱了，那么他肯定能赚到钱。但是这一点很难，真的很难，如果有一天，你看到一条生龙活虎的鱼，千万不要放过，好好的捆住他，很有可能，他会带给你所有的梦想.
看过很多关于双鱼的各种传说，分析，解释。似乎无一例外的把双鱼当作了一个女人的星座，动不动就是流眼泪，唉声叹气。可惜可叹，如果双鱼真的只是这样的一个星座，那么可以说没有一个人愿意去做双鱼，而历史上也不会有什么著名的双鱼人物了。
最本质的部分：思考
双鱼座的最本质特点是什么？善良？懦弱？温柔？不是，我告诉你，是思考（在很多情况下，是过多的思考）。是的，双鱼座的一切特性，都来自于他过多的思考，或许世上没有第二个星座比双鱼座更能洞察别人的心理，更能分析事情的本质。你可以称之为敏感，但是一旦这种敏感能够正确的使用，那么没有人能比双鱼座更快的学会人情事故，在这一方面，有一个双鱼座的伟人做的尤其出色，他的名字是周恩来。因为思考的太多，所以双鱼座的人就算不是真正善良的，也至少是表面善良的。对于双鱼来说，善良与其说是本质，不如说是双鱼喜欢的一种生活方式，以善良的方式活着，是轻松而又受人尊敬的，一般的双鱼座很早就能洞察到这一点。再谈谈温柔，这一点，不管是哪篇文章，都不会忘了提双鱼座的温柔。是的，双鱼的确是温柔的。因为双鱼总能敏感的体会到对方的细微变化，时刻了解到对方心意的转变，表现在行动上，就是能尽快的知道，什么时候应该为女孩披上自己的外衣，什么时候应该停下手里的活，转过身去和女友好好的说话。
与众不同的部分：信仰
双鱼的信仰就是没有信仰！在双鱼的世界里面，没有绝对的对和错，如果发生了一件事，他第一件做的事情是去理解这件事，去分析这件事，而不是去判断这件事是对的还是错的。 下面引用一段话说明双鱼的这个特点： '鱼座男人没有偏见，没有亲自穿著鹿皮走几哩路，他不会评断印地安人；没有试试赤脚走路，他也不会评断裸体主义者。甚至这些做了，他还是会满心谅解而不会过于批评。他很少冷酷的指控，倒是每每温暖的忍耐，他甚至会试试了解他的岳母，天底下有几个男人能这样？海王子拥有罕见的同情精神，他的朋友向他吐露秘密而从不担忧会把他吓著，要吓到鱼起码需要两吨以上的炸弹。如果你和我以及你的鱼儿三人同坐一室，一个男人走进来告诉我们他有些担忧，因为他重婚，在四个州各有一个老婆，你可能眼睛瞪得大大瞧他，冒著火，心想监狱是最适合他的地方，我可能鄙夷的说他是个卑鄙的流氓，但你的鱼儿很可能问：'那四州？你爱不爱她们其中任何一个？'鱼很好奇，但防震。对他来说，这个家伙需要一缸子同情以及好得要命的律师。' 有一位伟人利用了这点特性，结果成就了科学史上的神话，他就是爱因斯坦。
双鱼的致命缺点：懦弱
现实中的双鱼座确实给人太多的失望，懦弱，多疑，自卑，优柔寡断，没有主见.....一个双鱼座或许没有上面全部的特点，但至少会有一，二个。就算是伟大如周恩来，有时候难免有些优柔寡断和没有主见，当然，这种时候不多。造成双鱼座优柔寡断的原因很简单。因为同样一个选择，在一个射手看来，只需要考虑2样东西，但是在双鱼看来，却需要考虑10样东西，因为他想的实在是太多了。简单的说一句话，双鱼都会想到它会给周围的人带来多少种不同的影响，它会让人对自己有怎么样的看法，会不会造成误解。（虽然很多时候，双鱼会冲动的把一些话脱口而出） 至于多疑，这点和自卑联系的比较紧密。虽然双鱼座能轻易的了解对方的意图，看透事情的真相，但是却往往不能坚持住自己的观点，这种不能坚持大多数是因为双鱼座自己不愿接受这个事实，也有很多时候是因为双鱼对自己不够自信。关于前一点，比较突出的一个例子是，双鱼座的女孩不到男孩子直截了当的告诉她，他不爱她了，女孩就总是还抱有一线希望，虽然女孩心里明白的很。懦弱呢？关于这点，和信仰联系在一起。你一定觉得很奇怪，懦弱和信仰又有什么关系呢？信仰是种很可怕的力量，他可以让一个人做出平时不敢做的事情，拥有不该拥有的勇气，牺牲不该牺牲的东西。而双鱼恰恰是没有一丁点信仰的，就算有，也不过是为了给生活加一点调味剂，或是给自己找一个避难所。对于双鱼来说，自己能过舒适，安稳的日子，比什么都重要。富贵如浮云，最想的开这点的就是双鱼座了。至于爱国什么的，酒饱饭足的双鱼可以慷慨激昂，也会不惜重金施于，但是只是建立在自己有好日子过的前提下。接下来，可以解释下双鱼的懦弱了。只要能让自己和爱人平平安安，有什么不可以忍受的呢？什么尊严，什么气节，见鬼去吧。所以只要不把双鱼逼到绝境，你尽可以嘲弄双鱼的懦弱。每条鱼的忍受范围都不同，但一般都比正常人多那么一点点。但是如果你不小心让一条鱼觉得无路可走了，那么你真的要小心了。鱼可以践踏人间一切法律，无视所有道理，更不会考虑自己的尊严和人格。你务必要相信这一点，虽然这种时候很少，但那只不过是因为上帝不想让人们经常看到地狱的惨状。
双鱼的最大优点：感情
与其说双鱼是个为爱情而活的星座，不如说双鱼是个为感情而活的星座。对于双鱼来说，世界上最重要的东西是感情，一条精神上满足的鱼，可以没有其他东西，就已经是最幸福的人（当然，绝大多数情况下，没有其他东西，很难精神上满足）。任何感情对于双鱼来说都是重要的，爱情很重要，但不见得会比亲情更重要，在双鱼的眼中。对于鱼来说，感情是单纯的，是单独的。鱼可以原谅对方的一切，只要那个人是真心对他好的。你可以十恶不赦，可以吃喝嫖赌，可以之前是人尽可夫的妓女，可以是个卑鄙无耻的骗子，都可以原谅，只要鱼能确定你是真心的喜欢他，对他好。但是请注意一点，大部分的鱼都比你聪明，不要以为你的小伎俩可以骗到鱼，你是不是真心喜欢他，他比谁都清楚。对于一个男孩子来说，双鱼女孩能给你对于一个女孩子想要的一切，温柔，爱你不顾一切，可爱（很多时候是装的，鱼大多数是很聪明的)，体贴..... 对于一个女孩子来说，双鱼男孩....嗯..... 看你的运气了，如果你遇到的鱼是个没有志气，不想做事，玩玩乐乐的鱼，而且他已经25岁左右了，那么好心的提醒你，还是尽早离开他吧。除非你是个富婆，或者你只是找个情人（没有人比双鱼更适合做情人了：安全快乐而无副作用）。否则，你会经历世间最凄凉的婚姻和生活，阿门................ 那么如果你遇到的鱼是有事业心，能上进，肯做事的鱼，或者干脆就是事业有成的鱼，那么真的是恭喜你，你是千万少女中最幸运的一个，再挑剔的女人也无法对一个有上进心有事业的鱼有更多的要求了。你可以得到世界上一切的温柔和快乐，包括用钱买的到的和用钱买不到的，鱼很乐意把他的一切奉献给他爱的人，看到他爱的人开心，他会更开心。大部分的鱼的'一切'仅仅只有感情，而没有物质，但是我们现在讨论的是最优秀的那种鱼，那种能随时把名望和财富送给你的鱼，现在你知道你有多幸运了吧。
提到感情不得不提的：公平
很奇怪吗？公平对于双鱼来说，是个很重要的单词。双鱼没有普遍意义上的价值观，是非观，你不能用这件事这样做是对的，那样做是错的来说服一个双鱼座。永远记住，鱼的世界里很少有对错。那么鱼又是怎么来处理他和别人（尤其是爱人的关系）呢？就是公平。如果鱼曾经有过十几，二十个女朋友，那么他就不会在意你以前有过多少个男朋友，如果鱼一个不小心跑出去玩了一夜情，那么你一夜情的时候，他也会选择无所谓好吧，就算你的鱼纯情的一塌糊涂，你是他（她）的第一次，他也可以原谅你的曾经花心，一时花心，可能会的花心，只要你能用足够的关心和真心的喜欢弥补。鱼大致兑换了下你的关心（兑换比例只有天知道了，呵呵），如果觉得双方大致公平的（相对于他对于你的感情付出），那么他就无所谓，就会原谅你。所以和鱼相处是件很简单的事情，只要你能保证你给他的和他为你付出的差不多多，就可以了。至于伦理道德嘛...嗯，讲真的，鱼从来不是教条主义者。反过来，如果你让鱼觉得你对他的关心不够多，对他的爱不够多（不够多是指没有他给你的多），那么鱼会在痛苦之后，也相应的减少对你的关心和爱，不要怀疑，这方面，鱼比谁都表现的现实和斤斤计较。
感情中的完美主义
鱼在意的东西很少，所以很不幸，鱼对于他在意的东西就是完美主义者的态度。对于鱼来说，完美的情人不是忠贞不二的情人，不是事业爱情兼顾的情人，也不是外形完美的情人。鱼要求的是'完美的爱'。你可以不经常说我爱你，但是你说的时候，一定要是真心实意。你可以很少陪他逛街，但是你陪的时候，一定要是真的开开心心。你也可以对他说很少的情话，但是你要保证，你对别人说的情话更少，而且你对他说的是真心的话。对于鱼来说，欺骗和做作是最不可原谅的。很多人以为简简单单的对鱼说几句我爱你，固定性的发些短信问候鱼，经常为鱼买些好东西就能让鱼觉得被爱了。真不幸，大部分鱼都聪明过了头，一般都能轻松辨别那些举动是真心的，那些不过是手段（如果你曾经用这些手段征服过双鱼女生，也别得意，只不过是双鱼女生比男生更难以拒绝别人而已）。所以，请诚实一点对待鱼，爱他多少就给他多少，他也会给你同样多。这至少比他生你的气好的多，不是吗？
双鱼真的浪漫吗？
所有的星座解释都会说双鱼是浪漫的，但是所有和双鱼（特别是双鱼男生，一般浪漫都是指男生做的事情）接触过的人，都往往感觉不到双鱼的浪漫，到底是为什么呢？难道双鱼并不浪漫？ 我给你个肯定的答案，双鱼绝对浪漫，他脑子里面的浪漫点子不仅包含了所有好莱坞大片的经典场景，还有更多他自己的原创镜头，他时不时的都在幻想浪漫的场面，一个鱼可能在他18的时候就开始想他30岁结婚的布置。那么为什么现实中是两样呢？因为2点，自卑和善良。前一点很好理解，大部分的浪漫需要自信。很多时候，不是鱼不想浪漫，而是不好意思和没胆子那么做，你能理解是吧，呵呵。那么自信的鱼呢？为什么他也不浪漫？因为他没有遇到合适的人，因为他善良。双鱼的爱情大部分是有些被动的。鱼总是轻易的喜欢上一个女孩子（注意，我用的单词是喜欢），然后开始和这个女孩开始交往，然后十有八九，会发现这个女孩不是能给自己完美的爱的女孩（这是肯定的，遇到最合适自己的人哪有那么容易），鱼很现实的知道，他和这个女孩不可能有将来的，2个人能拥有只能是一段回忆。那么对鱼来说，绝大部分的情话都会说不出口，因为鱼自己知道这些话都是骗人的，很多浪漫的举动做不出来，因为鱼不敢让女孩陷的太深，怕分手的那一天女孩太伤心。很多人说处女，金牛的人想的多，其实鱼想的并不比他们少，只不过犹犹豫豫又舍不得的鱼，就算明了的知道和女孩没有将来，也不会点破，只会静静的维持，享受拥有的每一天。但是这样的情况下，鱼的善良就让鱼忍住了很多浪漫的情话和行动。我这么说是不是显的鱼很高尚？呵呵，没有什么真正高尚的人。鱼能如此的为女孩着想，是因为这么做能让鱼觉得自己很伟大，有一种悲剧式的美感，鱼愿意让自己沉浸在这种自我的意淫中。当然，这样至少比不顾别人的死活，只图自己开心要好的多是不是？所以还是应该为鱼们鼓鼓掌的。所以，如果有一天，你看到一条浪漫无比的鱼，不要怀疑，他已经认定你们有个美好的未来，他已经知道他不会给你太多的伤心了，那你还犹豫什么？上去拥抱你的幸福吧。
结语：什么样是好的双鱼？
双鱼有很多缺点，但是大多数都可以原谅。除了2条，懒惰和犹豫。而双鱼要成为一条好鱼，所需要的东西很简单，事业。其实不用去提醒鱼们其他的事情了，他们自己都能想明白。只需能保证鱼能稳步进行他们的事业就可以了。一旦鱼用心去赚钱了，那么他肯定能赚到钱。但是这一点很难，真的很难，如果有一天，你看到一条生龙活虎的鱼，千万不要放过，好好的捆住他，很有可能，他会带给你所有的梦想.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
happy!
happy happy happy!=)
3 modules down - 1 final report and 1 exam left before i can officially conclude my third year of nus life.
the two interviews ytd went fine. but well, considering that both coys prob have many many candidates, i really dunno if i can secure an internship with either.
*keeping my fingers crossed and wishing*
i seriously dun want to go hk and feel so insecure without an internship waiting for me when i come back.
but the first one was good. the interview was scary, the person asked so many difficult qns, like, "you said you want to work in a bank, but why didn't you do any internship at banks before?", "how come you only applied here in april?", "there are so many jobs with numbers and fit your criteria, why banks?", "what did you do in 2008? how come i dun see anything here (on my resume)?", etc etc. i stammered thru some, i smoked thru some. but i still like this interviewer.
he made very fair assessments, saying i was too stern and this might jeopardize my chances at interview, but he told me to feel good about myself because i stuck with my tutee for 3+ years while others could have given up very easily. i mentioned that with a better job fit, i might be able to perform better, but he said, "i dun agree. from my assessment of you, you are those sort whom if i place you anywhere, you will still do well because you will never want to submit substandard work. the only difference is you won't be happy doing it."
so, he suggested to forward my resume to the ops dept cos his program doesn't have rotations in ops. he said again, "i think you're suitable to work in a bank. i rather retain you than let you go elsewhere, but i dun have any job that might fit you. so i'd rather you be referred to my ops side to have a better fit to your interests."
well, it's great to have an interviewer understand you. he wasn't an easy interviewer to smoke thru, but he was fair, and that's what i liked about him. even if i end up not getting a job in the coy, i would at least feel good that someone actually understands me.
luckily i applied for the program. cos the application deadline was so near all the assignments, but i still sent in my application, actually thinking that i dun stand a chance. well, at least the chance stands somewhere at 20-30% i think, which to me, is rather high already.
the second interviewer was a stark contrast. he was VERY nice. i asked him more questions than he asked me. and he really explained a lot of stuff. i can totally tell that if i work under him, he will definitely try to guide me and teach me a lot of things. but well, it sure doesnt seem like i will be able to secure any job at the coy after the 3-mth internship.
but anyhow, if i get any offer now, i'll be damn happy. seriously seriously happy. but yeah, wait till that day.
3 modules down - 1 final report and 1 exam left before i can officially conclude my third year of nus life.
the two interviews ytd went fine. but well, considering that both coys prob have many many candidates, i really dunno if i can secure an internship with either.
*keeping my fingers crossed and wishing*
i seriously dun want to go hk and feel so insecure without an internship waiting for me when i come back.
but the first one was good. the interview was scary, the person asked so many difficult qns, like, "you said you want to work in a bank, but why didn't you do any internship at banks before?", "how come you only applied here in april?", "there are so many jobs with numbers and fit your criteria, why banks?", "what did you do in 2008? how come i dun see anything here (on my resume)?", etc etc. i stammered thru some, i smoked thru some. but i still like this interviewer.
he made very fair assessments, saying i was too stern and this might jeopardize my chances at interview, but he told me to feel good about myself because i stuck with my tutee for 3+ years while others could have given up very easily. i mentioned that with a better job fit, i might be able to perform better, but he said, "i dun agree. from my assessment of you, you are those sort whom if i place you anywhere, you will still do well because you will never want to submit substandard work. the only difference is you won't be happy doing it."
so, he suggested to forward my resume to the ops dept cos his program doesn't have rotations in ops. he said again, "i think you're suitable to work in a bank. i rather retain you than let you go elsewhere, but i dun have any job that might fit you. so i'd rather you be referred to my ops side to have a better fit to your interests."
well, it's great to have an interviewer understand you. he wasn't an easy interviewer to smoke thru, but he was fair, and that's what i liked about him. even if i end up not getting a job in the coy, i would at least feel good that someone actually understands me.
luckily i applied for the program. cos the application deadline was so near all the assignments, but i still sent in my application, actually thinking that i dun stand a chance. well, at least the chance stands somewhere at 20-30% i think, which to me, is rather high already.
the second interviewer was a stark contrast. he was VERY nice. i asked him more questions than he asked me. and he really explained a lot of stuff. i can totally tell that if i work under him, he will definitely try to guide me and teach me a lot of things. but well, it sure doesnt seem like i will be able to secure any job at the coy after the 3-mth internship.
but anyhow, if i get any offer now, i'll be damn happy. seriously seriously happy. but yeah, wait till that day.
Monday, April 12, 2010
this is why i hate interviews
i'm traumatised.
nobody has ever been so brutally honest about how my lack of confidence is going to pull me down.
yes i know that i cannot score well during interviews, but i never expected it to be this bad.
in sharp contrast to my previous post, the second interview that i had was REALLY bad. i really weren't aware that i was portraying such a bad view of myself in front of them.
i freaking screwed it up. seriously wanted to cry when i was on the way back cos the person spent like 20 mins telling me how smu students are better, more polished, more business-ly conversational, etc etc. and well, he even said, "looking at your resume, i thought you were going to blow me over."
"i'd expected a much more confident individual, coming in to tell me how good you are. but now you're putting so many disclaimers, as if telling us NOT to hire you."
yeah yeah. that's precisely why i hate people who looks only at the surface of other people. i'm not saying i have much substance, but going by the looks of it, even though you expressed otherwise, i know that it's a BIG FAT NO for me in your head.
so, is it that only confident, polished individuals can apply for jobs? are they the only ones who can survive in this world? you know, you sounded as if everyone must be moulded the same way. business students MUST know how to present, we MUST know how to package everything nicely and portray only the good side, but hey, i'm being realistic here. how can i assume i know everything but actually i know nothing much?
i am fully aware of my weaknesses, and thanks for giving me such a lesson. maybe, perhaps, i'm really not cut out to be a smooth talker and i really dunno how to package myself, but pls give me the respect too. i am demoralised. i hate myself even more now.
internships?! HAH. impossible.
nobody has ever been so brutally honest about how my lack of confidence is going to pull me down.
yes i know that i cannot score well during interviews, but i never expected it to be this bad.
in sharp contrast to my previous post, the second interview that i had was REALLY bad. i really weren't aware that i was portraying such a bad view of myself in front of them.
i freaking screwed it up. seriously wanted to cry when i was on the way back cos the person spent like 20 mins telling me how smu students are better, more polished, more business-ly conversational, etc etc. and well, he even said, "looking at your resume, i thought you were going to blow me over."
"i'd expected a much more confident individual, coming in to tell me how good you are. but now you're putting so many disclaimers, as if telling us NOT to hire you."
yeah yeah. that's precisely why i hate people who looks only at the surface of other people. i'm not saying i have much substance, but going by the looks of it, even though you expressed otherwise, i know that it's a BIG FAT NO for me in your head.
so, is it that only confident, polished individuals can apply for jobs? are they the only ones who can survive in this world? you know, you sounded as if everyone must be moulded the same way. business students MUST know how to present, we MUST know how to package everything nicely and portray only the good side, but hey, i'm being realistic here. how can i assume i know everything but actually i know nothing much?
i am fully aware of my weaknesses, and thanks for giving me such a lesson. maybe, perhaps, i'm really not cut out to be a smooth talker and i really dunno how to package myself, but pls give me the respect too. i am demoralised. i hate myself even more now.
internships?! HAH. impossible.
i want an internship!!
i'm at starbucks waiting for my second interview of the day. the first one went fine (i think!) but well i dun think i appeared outstanding. plus my language was really casual i feel. now it depends on what type of people they're looking for!
(wasn't as scary as i imagined it to be. maybe cos all the interviews we've been hearing are the crazy IB kind, and all the full-time ones. ah well. at least it's over now!)
next one's a little scary though. i wrote in my cover letter as if i know a lot about the industry, but i haven't been keeping up with the news about the industry. so now, it's time to cramp some info into my brain. just hope i'll appear more natural. the person sounded friendly over the phone, but you never know. he said there will be 2 interviewees. =X lets just hope things will go fine lar.
and i'm so dead for IA. totally screwed up the final quiz. hoping that my mid-term will help to pull my grades up a little since it's equal weightage.
the weather is so horrible that everytime i go into a lift with someone else, that person will definitely complain about the heat. quite funny, but yeah, what a way to strike up convos. haha.
ok i shall continue preparing for my next interview. one presentation each tmr and wed + 2 assignments on wed, and i'm (almost) done for the sem! 60 more hours!!!
(wasn't as scary as i imagined it to be. maybe cos all the interviews we've been hearing are the crazy IB kind, and all the full-time ones. ah well. at least it's over now!)
next one's a little scary though. i wrote in my cover letter as if i know a lot about the industry, but i haven't been keeping up with the news about the industry. so now, it's time to cramp some info into my brain. just hope i'll appear more natural. the person sounded friendly over the phone, but you never know. he said there will be 2 interviewees. =X lets just hope things will go fine lar.
and i'm so dead for IA. totally screwed up the final quiz. hoping that my mid-term will help to pull my grades up a little since it's equal weightage.
the weather is so horrible that everytime i go into a lift with someone else, that person will definitely complain about the heat. quite funny, but yeah, what a way to strike up convos. haha.
ok i shall continue preparing for my next interview. one presentation each tmr and wed + 2 assignments on wed, and i'm (almost) done for the sem! 60 more hours!!!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
i need all the luck i can get!
too many things going on, and i'm getting sick of everything that is killing us at such a fast pace.
1 final quiz, 1 final report, 2 interviews tmr. honestly, i rather focus on the internship interviews because those are the ones that will make me REALLY happy if i manage to grab hold of either one of the opportunity (much higher utility in the short run). but my final quiz is also scary. i've been doing well for IA for the whole semester, and i seriously dun want to screw up at the last moment.
these thoughts aside, at least my efforts in applying for internships are paying off. i might not be able to get the internships (cos well, my main obstacle is ALWAYS the interview), but at least i'm given the chance now. if i had gone for the interview and got rejected, at least i won't feel so inferior. there are just too many companies that are not getting back to me that are making me feel SOOOO bad about myself.
less than 4 days to the end of the craziness. i seriously hope these 4 days will go on smoothly.
i've also been feeling rather good these days cos i've been driving around. made myself overcome all the fears, and injecting confidence of my driving to my mum who's the deciding factor whether i can start driving out myself. well 2 1/2 years after getting my license, it does seem that my learning curve is too flat, but i'm feeling happy that i'm overcoming my fears and also less guilty about wasting money on the driving lessons a few years back.
and yes perhaps i'm really more suitable to be single, and i'm speaking objectively. there are too many things that i've been thinking about, and maybe it's just that i will never be able to find someone who's totally appreciative of who i am just because i have so many flaws that i cannot overcome on my own. i can feel bad for myself all the time, but nobody else is gonna take pity on me because of that.
i should learn to be more appreciative of the people around me instead.
i was just reminded of this phrase, "没有什么事能够让你怀疑你自己". perhaps i should just have more confidence in myself, and not keep focusing on what i can't do, but rather what i can. i'm so used to doubting myself that self-confidence seems like an unattainable task for me.
1 final quiz, 1 final report, 2 interviews tmr. honestly, i rather focus on the internship interviews because those are the ones that will make me REALLY happy if i manage to grab hold of either one of the opportunity (much higher utility in the short run). but my final quiz is also scary. i've been doing well for IA for the whole semester, and i seriously dun want to screw up at the last moment.
these thoughts aside, at least my efforts in applying for internships are paying off. i might not be able to get the internships (cos well, my main obstacle is ALWAYS the interview), but at least i'm given the chance now. if i had gone for the interview and got rejected, at least i won't feel so inferior. there are just too many companies that are not getting back to me that are making me feel SOOOO bad about myself.
less than 4 days to the end of the craziness. i seriously hope these 4 days will go on smoothly.
i've also been feeling rather good these days cos i've been driving around. made myself overcome all the fears, and injecting confidence of my driving to my mum who's the deciding factor whether i can start driving out myself. well 2 1/2 years after getting my license, it does seem that my learning curve is too flat, but i'm feeling happy that i'm overcoming my fears and also less guilty about wasting money on the driving lessons a few years back.
and yes perhaps i'm really more suitable to be single, and i'm speaking objectively. there are too many things that i've been thinking about, and maybe it's just that i will never be able to find someone who's totally appreciative of who i am just because i have so many flaws that i cannot overcome on my own. i can feel bad for myself all the time, but nobody else is gonna take pity on me because of that.
i should learn to be more appreciative of the people around me instead.
i was just reminded of this phrase, "没有什么事能够让你怀疑你自己". perhaps i should just have more confidence in myself, and not keep focusing on what i can't do, but rather what i can. i'm so used to doubting myself that self-confidence seems like an unattainable task for me.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
disgusted.
i hate it when plans change last minute. next time when you want to make changes, can you pls tell me earlier?!?! argh.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
may the next 8 horrible days pass soon.
i dunno how one can stay sane and optimistic despite the multiple deadlines. 1 assignment, 1 report and 1 presentation down this week, still have so many next week. i dunno how i'll survive, but i guess i will.
today was rather encouraging though. received my second internship interview call this morning, so going for interview next monday. i seriously hope i get this one and i dun have to worry about it anymore. but i think that's going to be sooooo difficult. ah well can only hope rite...
and received an email from one of my prof saying that my essay is one out of many chosen to be uploaded onto ivle and prob sent to hdb also. prob quite insignificant, but ah well at least it's a recognition of my efforts.=)
jiayou jiayou jiayou! 8 more days!!!
today was rather encouraging though. received my second internship interview call this morning, so going for interview next monday. i seriously hope i get this one and i dun have to worry about it anymore. but i think that's going to be sooooo difficult. ah well can only hope rite...
and received an email from one of my prof saying that my essay is one out of many chosen to be uploaded onto ivle and prob sent to hdb also. prob quite insignificant, but ah well at least it's a recognition of my efforts.=)
jiayou jiayou jiayou! 8 more days!!!
Friday, April 2, 2010
project rant
today, i almost had a heart attack.
one of my projects was due 5pm. last night at 11pm, one of my group members told me she's writing her part (first and last draft btw).
at 4am, she sent all her files.
at 11am, my other group member called to ask me about the survey results i collated (aka she's still drafting her part)
at 1pm, i called one of them up to ask for the progress: just finished compiling, haven't edited and formatted.
at 4pm, one of them called me and asked me to check the entire report when i was giving tuition.
445pm, report finally uploaded.
goodness. what kind of timeline is this. we had wanted to finish everything by wed, but obviously it dragged on until HOURS before the due date.
but well, at least the report is well written in my eyes. not the perfect one, which i also dunno how it'll look like, but it seems reasonable enough for a mgmt mod (the first draft i wrote for this project was so like a stats report. i almost cried when my work was criticised to the max after i sent it out. almost felt like escaping from the group discussion we were having.)
ah well. lets just hope i won't score too badly for this module. i dun want to end up using s/u for a biz mod!
1 1/2 projects down. 6 assignments, 3 presentations, 3 reports, 1 final quiz and 1 exam to go.
(i realised i ONLY write bad things in this blog. i'm THAT pessimistic huh. i've been feeling extremely moody these days. stress from school work, stress from not finding internship, etc. argh)
one of my projects was due 5pm. last night at 11pm, one of my group members told me she's writing her part (first and last draft btw).
at 4am, she sent all her files.
at 11am, my other group member called to ask me about the survey results i collated (aka she's still drafting her part)
at 1pm, i called one of them up to ask for the progress: just finished compiling, haven't edited and formatted.
at 4pm, one of them called me and asked me to check the entire report when i was giving tuition.
445pm, report finally uploaded.
goodness. what kind of timeline is this. we had wanted to finish everything by wed, but obviously it dragged on until HOURS before the due date.
but well, at least the report is well written in my eyes. not the perfect one, which i also dunno how it'll look like, but it seems reasonable enough for a mgmt mod (the first draft i wrote for this project was so like a stats report. i almost cried when my work was criticised to the max after i sent it out. almost felt like escaping from the group discussion we were having.)
ah well. lets just hope i won't score too badly for this module. i dun want to end up using s/u for a biz mod!
1 1/2 projects down. 6 assignments, 3 presentations, 3 reports, 1 final quiz and 1 exam to go.
(i realised i ONLY write bad things in this blog. i'm THAT pessimistic huh. i've been feeling extremely moody these days. stress from school work, stress from not finding internship, etc. argh)
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