i wish

have you ever felt so much like talking to someone, but when you open your msn list, just can't find anyone to talk to? or when you take out your hp, type a msg, and realise that you dunno who to send it to?

i guess such things happen to me too many times. and then it feels really horrible when you finally found someone to talk to, and that someone, after a few exchanges, tells you, 'hey i'm sorry gtg. talk to you another day k'.

i'm not a talkative person. unless you talk to me, i dun usually take the initiative. that's not good i guess, cos when people want to talk, they also won't come and find me. sometimes i wish i could just speak my mind and talk to anyone who comes to my mind. i wish i dun think so much. and i wish i know what i'm thinking about.

sometimes it's not that i can't think of anyone to talk to. but when ALL your closest friends are attached, you really find it a problem just to talk to these people. yes i'm jealous. i envy these people for having someone constantly by their sides listening to them and looking out for them.

but when you end up just having to keep waiting and hoping for things that dun come, you do get tired, that you give up any wishful thinking. i hate it that the more you think about something, the more that something will repel away from you.

i want to find some sort of relaxation and get myself away from the madness of everything. but escaping isn't really a solution huh.

i wish i can just scream into some huge ocean or grassland.

a small gesture is always enough to brighten up other people's days. but why is it so hard just to give a little appreciation to the people around you?