screwed up

sigh even though i expected this, i can't help but feel really sad about it. how can i screw up the paper so badly? below average leh. what was i thinking during the paper? is it complacency?

seems like this sem is going to be horrendous for me. blame myself for being soo distracted the past few weeks. now that i've sorted out some of my feelings, i do hope i can really start mugging and dun allow my cap to drop THAT much.

i feel so pissed off with myself. why am i so easily influenced by my own emotions. i dun seem to be able to control my own mind right now. sigh.

didn't help that YET another very close friend is attached. i took quite a while to recover from the state of shock.

on a sidenote, i'm glad to find a friend who thinks SOO much like me. it's good to be able to tell someone stuff that he'll understand right away. at least dun need to explain that much. haha zhi ji.=)