maybe i should look at the whole matter with another perspective. maybe i've just been a horrible daughter to my parents. unable to meet expectations, and at the same time insisting on my own way of doing things. and probably everything has been made worse by my own psychological barrier. even when my mum was scolding me for coming home late just now, i was still fu yan-ing. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
lyrics of tie chuang, by mavis xu. damn old song, but i suddenly listened to the lyrics, and found myself relating to it.
我的心早已经一片黑暗
再没有什麽是可以点燃
我只剩眼角的一滴泪光
怎能把这世界照亮
对你的恨已经慢慢变少
对你的爱依旧无法衡量
在原谅与绝望之间游荡
唯一的感觉是伤伤伤
我以为你给了我一线希望
我伸出手却只是冰冷铁窗
若现实它总教人更加悲伤
就让我在回忆里继续梦幻
我以为我从此能快乐飞翔
在梦醒后却只是冰冷铁窗
若现实它能教人更加勇敢
就让我在地狱里等待天堂
dinner with yowie and jun last night. high-class jap food. the food was good, and of cos the company too. talking to them always puts a lot of things into perspective. walked around esplande at night too, which was just relaxing. though i was stoning for quite some time.
here are some photos:
lyrics of tie chuang, by mavis xu. damn old song, but i suddenly listened to the lyrics, and found myself relating to it.
我的心早已经一片黑暗
再没有什麽是可以点燃
我只剩眼角的一滴泪光
怎能把这世界照亮
对你的恨已经慢慢变少
对你的爱依旧无法衡量
在原谅与绝望之间游荡
唯一的感觉是伤伤伤
我以为你给了我一线希望
我伸出手却只是冰冷铁窗
若现实它总教人更加悲伤
就让我在回忆里继续梦幻
我以为我从此能快乐飞翔
在梦醒后却只是冰冷铁窗
若现实它能教人更加勇敢
就让我在地狱里等待天堂
dinner with yowie and jun last night. high-class jap food. the food was good, and of cos the company too. talking to them always puts a lot of things into perspective. walked around esplande at night too, which was just relaxing. though i was stoning for quite some time.
here are some photos:
it was just bad that when i was alone while on my way back, everything just came back to me, and i was just so overwhelmed with sadness and loneliness all over again. sorry if i daoed anyone last night, cos i seriously didn't feel like talking to anyone.
dinner with jess ja cynli pong. omg the whole dinner was just really damn funny. we were just being our usual selves lar. and somehow our convos just make me feel like forgetting everything, and be happy. we stepped into a restaurant, then walked out again. after that decided to go cartel, but didn't want to wait. so we went to out of the pan [or something like that]. the food was really not bad, when we thought we wanted some desserts and asked for menus again, we decided that we wanted to go cartel to eat the cakes cos they were all 50% off. haha. but throughout our whole dinner, we were just laughing damn loudly. that's what i like about going out with this bunch of people - they nv fail to make me happy.
contract at bosch has extended to end april. just hope they will extend until uni starts lar, then i won't have to look for another job. but it'll be super busy for me these few weeks, cos of all the projects.
ahh i really really hope things will turn out right again.