life of a no-lifer.

just came back from a window shopping trip with my dad. actually it was more like he was shopping and i was just following him around. and the bad thing is that he goes into ALL the VCD shops and keeps looking around.=X so i was quite bored the whole time. but at least i got to go out! heh.

while we were walking around, someone called me and asked me to go for an interview for a part-time job. it's sort of a promoter job, for the launch of a new mineral water.=X i was really reluctant at first, cos if i had to do this outside of my current job, i'd probably be super tired the whole time. but then again, i haven't been doing anything other than my work for the past few weeks. and for me at least, it's probably a good training ground for me to learn how to speak up, how to persuade, and things like that. not bad an exposure. and pay is by assignment basis. i'm still suspicious though, but i'll see how it goes. good thing is that i can continue even when i stop my current job, and even when i start uni, so that means i'll still be able to earn some money. i sound so money-minded.=X

went to visit my cousin and my 3 months' old niece ytd. she's super cute! like one of the cutest ever babies i've come across. for the whole time we were there, probably about 45 mins, she didn't cry at all, she just kept looking around and smiling and making weird noises. and i took a lot of photos.=D

but behind all the smiles, i know my cousin hasn't had a good time. she's just ten years younger than my mum, and all this while in singapore, she has been living on her own, taking care of her daughter herself. she's not even married, and the father of the child is 14 years younger. she just left for US today, where the father is. when i saw her ytd, it seems like she has grown 10 years older since the last time i saw her, which was just about 2 years ago.

sometimes when i hear such stories, my heart will really ache. and at times like these, i question the idea of love. in my mind, i still yearn for an ideal relationship. but i wonder, are the things that i often imagine still possible in such times? i hear of so many failed relationships, and the heartbreaks that follow, i've seen so many people cry and mess up their lives because of failed relationships. i hear of so many who love people who cannot return their love. but yet, in my mind, i still have a perfect picture of love. i wonder whether this is a good or a bad thing. i wonder if this naivety will ever shatter.

oh well. hearing army stories is quite fun actually. but i guess in this period of time when you dun meet people all the time, it's the best proof to show how many good and close friends you actually have. and to tell the truth, i feel quite sad.=X all this while, i've been staying at home, and going home right after work. msn convos and smses have significantly reduced. i have no life at all. even my once so introverted brother is going out 10 times more than i am. and today i was even thinking of what i should do on my birthday though it's so near cny.

sorry if i sound attention-seeking, but i was just typing what i was thinking.=X and i guess sometimes, i can really think too much. and i expect too much from my friendships. i should really learn to fang kai xiong huai, and take things in my stride.

for now, i shall just look forward to meeting jun on mon, and hope that my buddies are free to meet me sometime soon. and class outing on third day of cny. and prob pri sch visiting on cny eve.

weather is so nice and cooling. i shall go for a night jog.=D after not exercising for so long. heh.