if only life can be factorised into its simplest terms.

stop rubbing it in my face damn it.

sometimes i wish i can just scold or express my unhappiness openly like my bro. at least i think i'll be much happier that way.

and at other times, i feel like throwing away my phone and maybe even my comp and live my life in isolation. because getting along, or attempting to get along with people, is so freaking tiring.

but i just can't. there's always an obligation to do this and that, everything in the whole wide world that will be watched closely by everyone around. and if you refuse to give in because you have your own principles, you'll be called 不孝.

stop thinking you're giving me an easy life.

makes me feel that my life is seriously not worth living. but what to do. i can only watch as i try my hardest not to throw my horrible life away.

sometimes i really wonder who i am living my life for.