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sometimes i really wonder if it's such a good thing that i'm earning my own money for my personal expenses. just seems that i'm supposed to pay for just about everything. if you want me to pay, at least get my consent, or let me know that i need to do so. you dun pay for something for one year then come tell me i need to pay for it for the rest of the remaining years. there's just no logic in me forking out money for something that i didn't even choose to own.

i'm proud of my current financial independence, and it's not that i'm being petty about my money. but sometimes it's really a matter of fairness. there's just no reason to get angry when we mention we have been paying for a lot of things since young. if you have been splitting your bills so clearly ever since we were so young, you can't exactly expect a total sharing of funds now isnt it.

ok maybe i'm not that fillial, and maybe it's only right that we give back to our parents, and i am not going to deny that i am quite a 斤斤计较 person. but in any case, i've put in a lot of effort into expanding my bank reserves, and in view that i'm going to deplete it myself in the next few months, this amount may not even be enough.

you know, sometimes i just feel that the old traditional way of thinking views the kids as tools for exploitation. of cos i'm not saying i'm being exploited, cos after all my family still treat me well. it's just that the expectations are so high when there aren't really any role model for me to look up to. i guess the baseline is that, you should expect your kids to treat you only as well as you treat them. anything above that is a bonus.

(i think i will prob offend a lot of parents with this, but i just need to rant about it.)