yet again

today started really badly.

was supposed to meet fm group to consolidate, discuss then rehearse for our presentation at 12. but cos my part is kinda new to me (i didn't do this part for the report), i had to do research before i did up my slides. decided to wake up earlier to do that before going to school.

but just as i started researching, my dad blasted songs. i closed the door and window and i could still hear very clearly. even after resorting to ear plugs, i could still hear the music very vividly. just when i got really irritated, my mum started listening to her old songs too. so i was SUPER frustrated by then.

in the end, i couldn't tahan and started throwing things around in my room. then i just screamed and cursed a little and then cried. i decided to head to school earlier to do the stuff, and i teared even when i was in the bus cos i felt so horrible. i wonder how many times i've broken down in these few weeks.

i really dunno why i just flared up like that, maybe it's stress or whatever, but yeah, poor mum who got 'scolded' by me.

and haven't been going on msn too. i think i'm so disillusioned about things now that i dun even think keeping in contact via msn helps friendships. how negative can i get rite.

but yeah life goes on. and everything will seem so small just a few weeks later. just as what i heard on the way to school when i was tearing:

天亮了 天亮了
地球又转一圈了
既然我还幸运的活着
当然要全力以赴去快乐

天亮了 天亮了
世界还是好好的
什么痛都是更渺小的
看太阳不是又升起来了

i think lyrics of chinese songs help me a lot especially when i feel down.

anyhow, went with mum to jj lin's concert! (it's free for us anw.=P) i thought the opening few songs were bad, like they didn't warm up the audience at all. then it got better in the middle. but the ending dragged for quite a long time, and half the audience was already gone even before encore (if there was one cos we left earlier too)! really think he's quite pro in his own sense. must support local singers!