i miss rj

考完了!!!

EXAMS OVER! =D

i just had to type that out twice rite. heh. somehow i nv felt so happy in a long time. the excitement of a three month holiday made me feel SUPER relieved when i handed in that two lousy essays of mine, but in my mind, i was telling myself, 'everything so lousy already, what's one more lousy module'. FINALLY i learnt how to be optimistic, in a not-so-good way. haha.

had a great dinner with yowie last night to celebrate my end of exams. he kept saying i was damn happy cos i kept laughing. but seriously, it's a good thing to celebrate. heh. dinner was paid by yowie, and it was damn hilarious cos we got lost trying to go town from nus. and he said we must get there before the end of the jay chou's cd, and even though he cheated by replaying tian tian de, we STILL didnt get there before the end of the cd. haha. did i say he drove there using his blue bmw? haha he was so excited about driving that it's really funny.

finished off the day by watching all my variety shows. HAHA!

things to do:
1) plan for bangkok
2) stardust
3) ibiza marketing
4) foc
5) bintan?
6) rag
7) kbox
8) SHOP
9) meet up with friends!
10) clear my room's mess

very obviously, the 10th point is to fill up space. but it's true! i shud clear up my table AND PUT AWAY THIS SEMESTER'S NOTES!=P

and you know when i looked at the photos that were posted onto the twentyfifths' blog, i felt an overwhelming sense of nostalgia that i started to think back on everything council-related. from council camp, to the oath, to match supports, to inter-house competitions, to orientation, to singing of school song with the flag in the middle, suddenly, i REALLY miss rj. i miss those times when everyone around me had that passion for the things they do, i miss how everything we do, we do it cos we love the school (as cliched as it sounds). like there was the responsibility, there was the 'burning passion', there was the adrenaline rush everytime we stood in front of the school leading in match supports. sometimes i really feel like going back to match supports to cheer our hearts out for raffles once again.

but i know it's never the same again. as we grow up, somehow, i dun see the same passion. i dun see the unity anymore. i nv was very bonded with the 25ths, but i feel attached to rj. everything (other than As) was a good memory for me (or maybe it's selective memory, but still).

sigh, i wish i can go thru two years of jc life once again. in uni, i just feel so restricted. everyone's 'matured', and you can't go crazy anymore. you can't just hang around the council room and start playing squash or table tennis. like i can nv do the same things that i did in jc. oh man. why do people have to grow up.

why must i have a paper ytd evening. then i could have gone back and experience all that once again. i really really miss it...

songs i've been listening to:

那些女孩教我的事-品冠

要不是你让想念猖狂打破天窗
我不会发现枕头上的荒凉
以为你就是故乡
却变成我的流浪
谁的傍晚是谁的天亮

十九八七六十六亿人同时狂欢
五四三二一个人倒数孤单
回忆的拥挤广场
假装你还在身旁
就像你最爱依赖我的肩膀

第一行诗的狂妄
第一首歌的难忘
第一次吻你的唇 你的倔强
第一颗流星灿烂
第一个天真愿望
第一个诺言 美丽的荒唐

你教我爱的善良
你教我恨的野蛮
你教我忘记该忘伤心太伤
那些你教我的事
让思念更苦更长
只想问 想念的 想念的 想念的你 怎么样

爱情是信仰或只能是旅途风光
那女孩带我漫游一次天堂
你教我怎么爱上
却没教怎么遗忘
让我的阳光都变成了泪光

麻雀-郭静

我坐在屋顶上哽咽湿了春天
想念在风和叶之间粘着昨天
阳光穿过了你的脸
在最美丽的云上面
像我识破你的谎言
当我爱你在最强烈

霎那间爱情不盼也不再鲜艳
我们等不到花盛开的季节
我还不了解你说的抱歉
是对不起我或甜蜜的从前
亮的天在我想你转眼变黑夜
我是来不及回家的麻雀
绕一圈一圈沿着你的脸
希望天黑以前飞出想念

眼泪要带着你彻底被风干
如果飞断了翅膀
让我掉落在天堂

小太阳-五月天

多么难忘 是你纯真的模样
突然的吻 弥漫着茶香
多么向往 梦想总是在他方
你说等我 不管多漫长

你就是太阳 蒸发了彷徨
所以挖开土壤 种下希望
离开了故乡

看着你的眼眶 忍着泪 闪着光
我会很快回来 继续我们 未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞 微笑着 要我去闯
你的盼望 是我握在手中 小小的太阳

念念不忘 此刻应该是农忙
如画风光 有你在歌唱
你就是太阳 照亮了方向
你让地球旋转 月亮发光
让我有翅膀

看着你的眼眶 忍着泪 闪着光
我会很快回来 继续我们 未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞 微笑着 要我去闯
你的盼望是我 握在手中 小小的太阳

看着你的眼眶 忍着泪 闪着光
我会很快回来 继续我们 未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞 微笑着 要我去闯
你的盼望是我 握在手中 小小的太阳

看着你的眼眶 忍着泪 闪着光
我会很快回来 继续我们 未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞 微笑着 要我去闯
你的盼望是我 握在手中 小小的太阳