justin, hongyi, david and vivian!
david and vivian!
justin and hongyi!
my buddies! oh man...i feel so old...
my grandbuddies! i feel even older here...there's gonna be 28ths soon!
sigh these few days i feel like i'm moving around without any aim. i've lost a sense of direction, i dunno where i'm heading now. i've just been doing things for the sake of doing. as much i enjoy school, i really dunno what the hell i'm doing stuff for.
and everyday i just fall asleep without motivation to do my work. WHY?! even i myself cant explain.
but well, i've been talking to some people i've never/seldom talked to online these days cos i've been publicizing stardust and getting people to do my stats survey. it's quite fun actually. since i dun normally talk to a lot of people online.
有时候我会不由自主地想起自己有多么的卑微。我不晓得我的自信到底埋在哪里，我只知道我好像永远也找不到它。朋友告诉我他们多寂寞，多么没人要，我只好安慰他们，但我何尝不需要同样的安慰。坚强也是一种脆弱，看似坚强的人，往往最脆弱。想要让身边的人开心，又总是觉得好累。面具带得越久，越不能拆。我不知道我为何总是这么悲观，但我很怕迟早会崩溃，为什么而崩溃，我也不知道。
我可是第一次在大学落泪，发生的事没什么大不了，但我还是哭了。也许理由没那么直接，我总觉得我之所以哭，不单单只是因为那小事。可能是压抑及累积已久的情感吧。
我老了，累了，倦了，疯了，麻木了，沮丧了，我原本以为自己已前进了，却发现我只是在原点转圈圈而已。我的生命需要一个重要的转捩点，而这个转捩点，也许只有我自己知道吧。