learning to learn

just thought i should blog after ytd's VERY interesting day! though i think it was the most packed day so far in the holiday, it's also one when i finally got to meet up with so many friends and have fun and do nonsensical and enjoyable stuff together.

started off with stardust meeting in nus. meeting for me wasn't very productive cos basically the few of us were just splitting work. but well i guess my workload just hasn't come.

then went to chinatown to meet 25ths for gastronomical expedition, aka food trail. went chinatown hawker centre, maxwell, prinsep. but of cos the rest went a lot more places than these. (dunno why the teasings still havent stopped after so long. not that i'm bothered by it, but dun people get tired of it?) really think it's such a good idea. food does bond people. heh. though i'm not exactly close to the 25ths, the company was good. was actually considering skipping it and going home first after the meeting, but decided against it. good decision it turned out to be.

left halfway to get to toa payoh to meet 6h people. as usual when i reached, only two people were there. anyhow, we got to boon's place, started bbqing for a while, then it started raining. so anti-climatic. but the guys continued bbq-ing, while the girls went to slice the turkey. rain stopped, so the girls went out again. talked to quite a few classmates whom i haven seen for SOOO long. was sort of reminiscing our 6h days. how i wish every of my tutorial class now is like 6h. that would be quite perfect. gender divide was once again a major problem, but i think you just need to get used to it.

yongneng and i left at around 1030pm to get to guanghao's new house. yn said he had to show face since he hasnt been down for most outings. his house was really quite beautiful. then they were skyping with josie when we reached. shortly after, they decided to leave for kbox at chinatown (reminded some of us of the midnight kbox session after which we walked 3 hrs from chinatown to potong pasir in the middle of the night). so we reached there at around 12 midnight and sang all the way till about 4am when they closed. IT WAS SO EX! but i REALLY enjoyed it. you know how i can never have confidence about my singing cos i'm tonedeaf. then i'll be so self-conscious. dun even know what key the songs were in, then wesley kept saying how he must change key etc etc. i felt so stupid, especially for someone who listens to quite a lot of chinese songs. but it was so fun cos at least the songs that i wanted to sing, chork will most likely know how to sing as well! not a loner again.=P always loved kboxing, but not like my singing is any good.

cabbed home with cedric after that. reached at 4.30am and was so tired i just collapsed in bed. and i actually had to work in the morning.=X but what a wonderful day i had!

i sometimes wish i really have the time this holidays to rest and recharge, to do fun stuff instead of working. like everyone else seems to be enjoying themselves. so many people asked me why i want to work. though it's true i wanna earn some money for overseas trips next year, at the same time i really want to have some time for myself to do those things that i enjoy, no matter how others might think my activities are so wuliao and all. like everytime after work, i'll be kept playing game with my bro, after which i'll be so tired and hence have no time to do any stuff at all. i didn't exactly meet up with anyone to have a nice good chat, like time is just passing by meaninglessly. i so envy people who went overseas cos i really want to, though it means burning a big hole in my pocket. like how buddy and jun went to italy, and jun and josie are going scotland soon. like every moment is spent meaningfully. i shall wait for after next sem, but i believe it'll be a long wait, with a lot of obstacles in between.

results out in 2 days' time. not worried now, just possessing some sort of anticipation, first time taking exams in uni. wonder how my results will turn out. whether i'll screw up or meet my expectations. ah well. i'll know soon.

and i was just thinking about how people from not-so-good education level actually grow up a lot faster mentally than people from better education level. like how peiying, the person working in starhub, has grown up. one day, she asked me to guess her age. she told me she has worked in starhub for 3 years, so going by the normal age of graduation, i guessed she should be around 24. but turns out she's only 21! only two years older than me. then she said, she started working earlier to finance her smoking habit. last time even skipping lessons to work.

and looking at myself, i was ashamed. i worked only to earn some money for myself, and to make my parents not nag. but have i truly grown up from the working experiences? i highly doubt so. i definitely learnt a lot, but it just feels so different from peiying's experiences. i still feel so sheltered, like i wouldn't survive if i dun have the people around me. maybe life is about such reliance on others around you, but as we grow older, we'll definitely have to learn to be independent, to start not relying on others. and by reliance, i dun simply mean physically reliant, but more so emotionally. eventually, we'll just feel that we're fighting the battle alone. not easy, but i think we all got to learn.

two full-shift days up ahead. festive season leh. hai nvm JIAYOU! (i think i'll die of boredom.=( )