review of 2006

i don't know why, but i suddenly feel like reviewing my past 2 years in jc. i guess jc was just a wonderful period of time for me, while it was tough, i also learnt a lot at the same time. made a lot of new friends, but also lost a lot of friendships. the ups and downs, the joy and the tears. it wasn't an easy period of time, but i guess the most important thing is to come out stronger than before.

1. Ahsayuni.
i'm REALLY glad for such a wonderful og when i first stepped into rj. we weren't exactly the most enthu og during orientation, but the best thing is our friendships slowly built up throughout the two years. i'm always so proud when people go "huh?!" when they hear my j1 og is still alive, still meeting up, planning outings, and even going overseas together. i'm just guilty that i slowly drifted away after council term started, and didn't fulfil my job well as a k'ruz. no matter what, i believe we will still continue to meet up in future, and i'll remain a proud member of ahsayuni forever.

2. S06H
when i first met 6h, i really didn't think much of my class. kept running to my og for "help" thinking that my class is hopeless. but slowly, as a ct rep, i began to know more people in class, and i started to love 6h a lot. all the nonsense, the crap, the squash, bball, floorball, frisbee, plus the other sports that we always owned other classes, of cos our "cool" director civics tutor who ended up "resigning", and a lot a lot other memories that we share. one thing i regretted was not getting to know my classmates better as i was always busy elsewhere. when jc ended, the thing that i missed most was really 6h. i'll miss the happy-go-luckiness of my classmates, the proness in sports, the horrible results, our amazing teachers, the ulu and scandalous classroom that we studied in, and of cos, the people. i feel so lucky to be in such a class, and can only hope we will continue to meet up, though we've all gone very separate ways.

3. Softball
it's my first ever sport cca that i was in, except for track & field in pri sch which i quit after 2 years. i learnt a lot from softball, not only physically, but it was also a test of my mental ability, how to remain calm in the face of competition, the best way to train so that we could achieve the best results, and plus all the team bonding. i remember detesting trainings cos it was just very tough to juggle council, house and softball at the same time. so i decided to put council as my priority, but still continued softball, cos what i wanted wasn't just the cca record, but also the experience as a sportsperson. i seriously considered dropping softball cos of my lack of commitment in j2, but i'm glad i didn't. though i wasn't in team, i could feel the team spirit, and was truly upset when they didn't manage to clinch the gold.

and also, until now, i'm still amazed at how the softball guys are so pro, and the bond between all of them. nv seen a group as close as them before. and i must say i'm still very touched for what the guys have done for the girls. at our finals, they were our cheerleaders, at prom, they gave us a bouquet of flowers each, and at our farewell, they gave all of us christmas presents even though some of us weren't exactly very close to them.

4. 25th Council
to be frank, i couldn't remember exactly why i joined council. i only remember thinking that i might not be able to get in cos i wasn't a prefect.=X i went thru the whole selection process hating it. i'm nv good at interviews, campaigning and making speeches. tagz was really amazing. the fun we had campaigning, thinking of ideas and staying up late to prepare everything. and the best thing was all four of us got in.=D

the whole year after that was just madness. started with council camp, which i'm glad i survived cos it's probably the most horrible camp i ever gone to, but it's the camp that impacted me the most. and then all the functions kicked off. at one point of time, i was really sad cos throughout my whole term, i didn't even get close to many people, and still remained lost as long as jun wasn't there. until now, i still feel uncomfortable at council outings.=X

but council was a really good experience. when you see people who really love the school work together and serve the school, planning events, match support, staying in school till 10 plus 11pm, not sleeping, somehow i just started to love the things that i did, knowing that the things i do would impact people around me.

and of cos i wouldn't forget my buddies from council. i was never close to derrick, and i'm really quite sad because of that. stopped keeping in touch after a while, and the last time i met him was during council camp. sad aint it? david and hongyi are wonderful buddies. though i wouldn't say i'm very close to them, i'm glad we're still keeping in touch. i'm not the best buddy around, but i do hope we will continue to keep in contact, and meet up whenever we can.

5. Buckle-Buckley
i was really hesitant in becoming house captain all over again. wanted to do something different in jc and in council, but in the end, i still said yes to the post, and nv regretted. there were so many things that i learnt, setting up a house system, trying to talk about house spirit when everyone was so cynical about the house, and plus all the public speaking that i was made to do. my comm was just amazing, really. so last minute but yet we still managed to achieve a lot.

i'll nv forget the inter-house competitions, when bb girls just owned everyone else cos of the zai sportspeople we have, especially track and field cos we basically just thrashed the other houses. of cos there was orientation when house spirit was super high, and it was just great hearing my house members cheer their hearts out. in the end, we managed to win to clinch the first ever ihc champion, and for once i felt the "glory" of being a house captain, cos it was simply wonderful to have house members coming up to me saying they're proud to be in bb. i nv thought i was a very good house captain, i just think we have the right people, and correct opportunities. ihc champs is prob the thing i'm most proud of in jc, really.

6. Studies
i think my studies was in the worst ever state in jc. i really screwed up my studies, failing so many tests. and i didn't even study much for A levels. there are just so much pressure around, saying "aiya you'll get your 4As lar", but i'm really not so certain, cos i truly am not confident. i only have myself to blame, for not concentrating much on my studies. but then again, i nv believe that studies is the only thing that determine our lives. and i nv understand why some people put so much focus on their results. oh well, now i can only hope i'll get a decent score for As.

7. Friendships
like i said above, i made a lot of new friends, but at the same time, also lost a lot. i can only say there is one particular friendship that i have a lot of regrets about, for not keeping it, though i really believed a lot in the friendship. and truly speaking, it took me many months to really recover. i can only blame myself for being so stubborn, for being so immature. i think i was nv that close to anyone, and nv opened up so much to someone i only know for such a short period of time, and no one showed that much concern before. until now, i'm still affected by the friendship, and it has left me somehow afraid of committing so much into a friendship.

but of cos, there are many other good friends that i made in jc. some of my classmates, 25ths, softballers, house members. i don't know if i'll continue to be good friends with these people, but at least we had some good times together. if you're here reading my blog, must remember to go out more often k!=D

so that concludes my review of my jc life. it was a really long entry, and i might have left out some stuff.=X to me, jc was so full of ups and downs. at one point of time, i was so sad cos i thought everything around me was just so horrible. my studies, softball, council, friendships, and even my health. i failed my tests, didn't get into team, wasn't doing well in council, friendships were going haywire, and i had some eating problems also. nothing was going well. but i'm glad i got out of it after that, and continued life after that. though i messed up some parts of my life, at least i got to know myself better through everything. and i must thank people around me who have been staying by my side, giving me strength, and listening to my complaints.

now that a new phase in my life has begun, i'll make sure things go fine, and the most important thing is to make sure i don't have any more regrets.

it must be a feat to have read till here. haha.