Tuesday, November 23, 2010

GONE

totally screwed up an interview i was complacent for. before i went for the interview, i thought i knew everything already, having prepared so much for my previous interview. never did i know that my mind will just go POOF during the interview itself.

"what do you know about our bank?"
"what do you know about ib ops?"

these two questions TOTALLY silenced me. you know, these questions have the most straightforward answers (which i can think of the answers even right after the interview), but yet, i couldn't even answer them properly. stammered thru most of my replies, and gave sooo sweeping statements that totally revealed my ill-preparation. the interviewers were definitely unimpressed. the rest of the interview, i was just mediocre.

basically i died. i wanted to kill myself so badly. i am desperately trying to nail a job, but yet, i soo totally screwed this interview up. it wasn't even a tough interview - my interviewers were nice, but a bit too sharp for my liking.

and the worst of all, i dunno why the overseas training stood out. i soo badly want to go for the overseas training, but totally for the wrong reasons. kept thinking about it after one of the interviewers mentioned it. this is bad, cos you know what, it just says one thing - i will never forget.

after i left the room, i kept imagining that the interviewers were mocking the fact that even someone of my calibre would DARE to apply. and i think there's a 90% chance that my name has already been struck off the list.

nice. so now i got to apply for even more jobs. go thru the torture a few more times.