two down!

it's amazing i spent almost two weeks at home doing nothing but studying. watching webcasts, doing tutorials. and in the end, i could only do half the math paper today.

ah well, at least it's over. and good thing scm's over too. didn't finish both the papers ytd and today but somehow i dun really bother too much also. time to rest for a few days and then start studying for risk and insurance and off to KL! only for 3 days though. better than nothing!=)

and i haven stayed at home for such a long period of time before, though i wonder if it's a good thing. actually i kinda look forward to coming home now. i used to wish i can stay out the entire day, coming home only at night. but now, my view is slowly changing. i feel so much closer to my mum, prob because she's jobless and staying at home now. and she's practically becoming my "chaufeur" too. well well blame myself for being so useless to get a licence but still dun dare to drive out.

i'm just afraid i'm becoming too reliant. but being reliant on my family is supposed to be a good thing rite? i used to be taught how to be independent, and not to rely on others to do things for you. but i think it has also made my character really isolated from others.

but i guess it's good that my family relations are getting slightly better, with my mum lar of cos. just that even if i want to talk to my dad now, it doesn't mean he wants to talk to me. i guess my entire family is just horrible at expressing our thoughts. i was reminded of the time when i kept quarrelling with my mum. at least that doesn't happen now. and since my dad doesnt talk to my bro and i, there are also no more conflicts between us and him. somehow or rather, this makes me feel slightly happier to stay at home.

perhaps perhaps, there's just nothing worthy to go out for.

i wish i can tell you everything once again.