flashback

sometimes i'm amazed by the importance of the chinese language to me, especially for expressing those thoughts of mine that can never find the right words/phrases in the english language. i love to use chinese to express certain emotions of mine, like in the previous post, and also to seek comfort in beautifully written lyrics.

i guess not many people will agree with me on that. maybe that's why i can't exactly connect with many people, cos after all, most people are more in tuned with the english language and the western scene than what i'm more familiar with.

have been going for intensive tuition this week, with not only dylan but also chelsea. i had tuition last fri, this monday, wed, thurs, and then tmr with BOTH dylan and chelsea consecutively. i'm glad to earn more money in this way, cos seriously, it's quite good money, but sometimes it gets tiring, especially the journeys to and fro. it's just satisfying to see my banks savings increasing rather than like in the past where my bank book are transactions of all withdrawals with deposits only once a year.

and if anyone remembers, i did write about dylan's mum wanting to fire me cos i couldn't click with dylan. seems like nothing of that sort will happen, at least not anytime soon, cos well, she's convinced now that i'm one of the few who can stand him, because 1) i heard xiuwen is having a hard time with him 2) he can't exactly click with his other tutors 3) he seems to be more willing to talk to me about his school stuff. tuition sessions are slightly more enjoyable now cos we're starting to suan each other. no more one-way convos at least.

now, mrs tan wants me to start planning his studying plan for o levels.=X

i never really thought i'd continue my tuition for such a long time when i started. it's 2+ years since i started, and it seems like i'll tutor him till the end of sec four, when it's almost time for me to graduate from uni too. i think having an external income makes me attempt to save more, and also makes me feel more at ease with myself whenever i spend, though there were really times i wanted to quit cos i was so stressed from all my school stuff and dylan wasn't improving much also.

ah well. you might ask why i have so much time to give tuition when my exams haven even ended. that's cos i haven't been spending a lot of time studying apb. imagine reading 30 sets of readings. and some of them are like 22 pages long. MADNESS.

anw, went to nsc for a blood test on tuesday. the nurse complained about my small veins again. but anyhow, mum sent me to bishan (near her office) since it's nearer for me to go home from there. took 59 home and suddenly all the memories started flashing back. it's quite a nightmare you know, cos suddenly i just imagined all the convos we used to have on the way home. i suppose i can never really forget those things we used to do together.

just thought it's such a pity we're back to strangers again. cos you know what, i never really did confide so much in another guy again, cos, well, i'm afraid.