sverely slacking

phew...pmm report and quiz are over, and so is the entire pmm module. i wouldn't say i did well at all, after all our group did so badly for both our simulation games. and i wouldn't say we did well for presentation too. i'm just hoping for a miracle for pmm i guess.

mugging for pmm was a tall order, and i'm serious. the textbook is the WORST textbook i've come across. it doesnt explain the terms used properly, the grammer and language are sometimes wrong, it's pure black and white, and text takes up 98% of the book. please tell me how to concentrate reading such a textbook. i was literally bored to tears can.

and didn't help that our report was so last minute. didn't help also that i was addicted to this taiwan drama: 敲敲爱上你. i practically was chionging the dvd version of the show in the midst of mugging for pmm. i love how the main girl character in the show, yao ziwang, was portrayed. kinda think i can relate to her. "世界上有一种人是不会被爱, 也不能爱人" such a sad character i must say, having suffered so much in her own family, but yet attaining certain attention for being a successful career woman. yet, she can't even pursue her own happiness, and doesn't dare to, cos of her own inferiority complex after being repressed in the family for so long and the matchmaking practice in the family. and after giving her all to help the person she loves who loves someone else, she doesn't even expect anything back, even when she's at the lowest point of her life. it's like, her life is about wearing a mask everyday, cos wherever she's at, she just has to show the strong side of herself. so sad ain't it. i feel so sad for her (and sometimes myself too cos i see some similarities) everytime i watch the show. and of cos, i only started watching the show cos of 郭品超. haha!

if you didn't already know the extent of my show-watching, i shall type out a list of taiwan variety shows and drama shows (not including s'pore shows) that are keeping me occupied:
- 超级星光大道
- 我猜
- 天才冲冲冲
- 百万大歌星
- 周日大精彩 (used to be 舞林大道)
- 模范棒棒堂
- 爱就宅一起
- 痞子英雄
- 敲敲爱上你

of cos it's not that i finish watching every one of it every week, i do suffer from backlog, and i do download some others to watch if the theme or the artistes are who i like. but sometimes even i myself am amazed at the amount of exposure i have to the entertainment industry in taiwan. i used to just be exposed to the music industry, but doesn't seem so now huh. haha.

slacking has been my middle name for a long time i guess, and even more so after the pmm paper. went for dinner with johnson and luther at suntec (ate at aston's!) after such a long time of not meeting up with the black rose people (though it was just the three of us last night lar). it feels good to be chatting about anything at all, suaning people and getting suaned. after a while, i somehow forgot the time and ended up reaching home past midnight. but yes, it was a good night spent. and today, my parents and i decided to visit the new mall called tampines 1. i quite love that place. we didn't manage to walk the entire place cos of the crowd (the queue outside uniqlo is CRAZY), but i like the shops that are there. seems like a good variety of apparel and food. bought two tops from one of the shops.=X i think i haven't bought clothes for a few months now, ever since taiwan. haha. quite worth the hype i suppose.

on a sidenote, i just received a conditional acceptance email from cbs. if nothing goes wrong, i should be heading to denmark in june!=) (i dun even know what i'm doing in my summer holidays other than cbs, spring stuff for prof sum and tuition. maybe i should go look for a temp job, but one month a bit hard to find ah.)

anyhow, with the end of week 13, i've officially completed my 2 years of being an nus bizad undergrad. the journey has been amazing, many ups and downs, many acquaintances made, many friends made, many lessons learnt, a lot of reality checks. i wouldn't say it has been well-spent, for i think i hadnt put in enough effort into really beefing up my resume.

sometimes i wish i could have kept up with the steps of others in the realm of biz. i guess i've had a good start, but slowly, i'm finding it hard to keep in line with many others. going for internships, going for exchange, going for all the career talks, going for case competitions are all experiences i haven't been going through in my 2 years. sometimes i wonder if biz is really where i want to go 2 years later. i do love the modules and the things i learn, but i wonder if this is going to continue into the future. right now, i guess i'm facing a crisis in the direction i'm taking. somehow, the road ahead doesnt seem so clear and straight anymore.