yet another horrible grade

sigh another really screwed up module.

went to lecture this morning then the lecturer announced that our website grade is up on ivle. went to check and realised that we got 77.75. mind you, the highest is 101.5, lowest 67, mean 85, 25th percentile 80.75. so...essentially we could actually only be in the 10th percentile.

i really got a shock. i really thought we did well. and yes, it takes up 30% of our grade. and as much as i dun want to s/u the module, it's really not within my control now.

i felt so much like banging my head on the wall. after pmm was screwed up, now comes computing. so should i just expect my cap to drop exponentially?

sigh all the promises of me doing well in uni dun seem to be coming true anymore. and i really hate myself for it.

and yes i think the stress is getting to me. i was really being quite direct about bizcomm report, and i feel quite bad for it. think my attitude towards people these days have been getting worse. sigh.

i dun understand why i'm breaking from all the workload. it never used to be this bad.

and i really feel like killing myself for STILL having a lack of motivation. i just can't concentrate and do my stuff properly it seems.