emotions within

i wanted to say that a lot of my emotions are kept inside me that sometimes i wish i could pour them out sometimes. but i'm always in this paranoid state that i'll tell myself i cannot reveal such stuff.

seriously, i think i convey a wrong set of impression to others. when i like someone, all the more i will avoid, prevent myself from being myself cos i scared i give myself away. even scared of talking normally.

what's wrong with me man. sometimes i really hate myself for that. sigh.