what is wrong

i really have no idea why i'm experiencing bouts of gastric these days. it's not that i'm skipping my meals. i'm having meals at regular intervals somemore. it really spoils things you know. when people around you are chatting and having fun, but cos of the pain in your stomach, you can't bring yourself to have that much fun with them anymore.

i dun like to see doctor for it cos everytime i go to the doc, it turns out that things i see for are all over-reactions, ie it's nothing serious.

i dun even know if it's gastric. maybe i shud call it abdomenal pains. other than cramps (which shouldnt be so often anw), i really have no idea what else it can be other than gastric.

it's starting to bother me quite a lot. when the frequency is getting higher each day.

i wanted to come home last night to get medicine, but decided against it cos it was too late. in the end, i had to bear with the pain for a few hours.

during BR outing just now, while they were happily chatting and eating ice cream, my gastric came again and i just turned quiet (which i doubt anyone noticed anw). and to think i was trying to prevent it by buying mos burger milkshake before my dinner. seems like it didnt work.

what the hell is wrong.

BR outing just now was fun. just kept laughing like mad. i love the og cos we can seriously just sit down there and chat for a few hours straight.

but being a super non-cliquish person, i still face the problem of initiating convos. i really think they feel bored talking to me. ah well.

was in a reflective mood on the way home yet again. listened to all the emo chinese songs. chinese songs really do have a lot of them revolving round love. not that i JUST noticed it, but it only just hit me that i am really quite a sad case. sigh.

back to school early morning tmr. my gastric pls stop man.