come and go

have been so tired the last few days i haven been myself. been whining and complaining so much to people around me. been describing about how bad my days are to everyone around me. it's really horrible, cos i feel everyone's days are equally bad, it's just whether you complain about it to others or not.

i drove from spottiswoode to nus today! well cant say i'm proud of myself cos traffic was so clear, but considering i haven driven for 5 months, i suppose it's quite ok already. of cos i still rather being driven around, but i guess i can't really waste the money that was spent on attaining my driving license. =X it's just been so funny cos yowie has been driving around so much after getting his license but my standard is currently stagnant. and i've been complaining so much to him these days i really pity him. but he just flew to india today.=X

projects are driving me nuts these days. went to school for fna project ytd, and then stats project today. and cos of these two projects, i have crazy sleeping times for the last two nights. fri night i reached home at 12am, napped from 1.30 to 3am, woke up to do fna project questions, slept at 6.30am, and then woke up at 8am to get to school. sat night i wanted to do stats project stuff, in the end i fell asleep at 12am, WANTED to wake up at 3.30am but slept right thru my alarms and snoozes and woke up at 7am. WONDERFUL.

oh and i went for the sdu, ssc, ycm etc talk on fri. inspired me to want to improve ibiza. was telling wk how upset i am about the whole organisation. then went on to talk to ja while on the way to town and she added a lot more stuff. in the end, while waiting for her at starbucks, i ended up typing one long document to wk as a follow up. i think they'd get a shock if they read the document. if i were them, i wouldn't even know what to do. but oh well, i really felt the drive to want to make ibiza successful.

i miss you jun.=( i can't wait for 8th june! and 17th june! oh man. you know luckily it feels like time is passing so quickly, if not i think i'd make myself sad everytime i think of our times spent together last time.

it's amazing how things are slowly slowing down cos of exams. it's so ironic cos as everyone is busy preparing for exams, i feel a huge sigh of relief cos as some people say, exams is a good excuse for everything. things will slowly come to a standstill and i think i must really catch up on my rest when the time comes. too bad i have an om presentation on my last day of school during the last lesson of the sem. oh well. i'm still looking forward to it.

you know sometimes i think how bad friendships in uni are. it's so transient in nature. you think you have made good friends during this period of time when you work together, but after that, the friendships never get a proper "follow-up". there are just so many people whom i actually feel like knowing them better, but my pride always stops me from doing so. "they may be very busy and think you're wasting their time". i'm just waiting for them to talk to me. but i know, from experience, that it's useless. maybe that's why i appear to have a lot of friends, but in actual fact, when things go wrong, when tears are dropping, i never ever know which number to call or msg, or which msn window to open.

is that really the nature of business people? sometimes i feel like i'm slowly dropping into that trap as well. i guess i'm slowly opening up, but i feel like i'm more evil as time goes by.

and i'm jaded. REALLY jaded. as much as i dun want to admit it.

i wonder how many people actually do read my blog, other than the regular taggers. then again, what am i thinking? i dun think whatever i'm writing here will actually make people want to waste time reading my entries. it's just not worth it. and people are not interested anw.