blame no one

"im too afraid to look weak, to look like im a person loaded with problems when im sure everyone around me is facing something just as bad or worse. i don't wanna talk to people cause it always makes them feel lousy that they cant help.it's silly how i'm always so caught up in my own problems."

sometimes you find better expression of your feelings in the words of others than your own.

and sometimes i just cant find the right person to talk to.

i'm very tired. mentally and physically. but who am i to complain? i wanna do well in all my commitments, yet it drains so much energy from me. i came home just feeling super sian and not wanting to do anything. as i said, it's the consequences of my actions. i have no one to blame except myself.

happy aprils fool! i got fooled TWICE today. once by yowie, the other by zj. damn good. i still felt so sad for zj lar. in the end he just said happy aprils fool. =X wah lau cheat my feelings only.

kk for once i shall sleep earlier.