10 days of independence

i can't stand the feeling of being accused. i guess it did lead me to self-reflect a little, and yes i do blame myself for not controlling myself more, but i dun think i did anything wrong. i mean i admit i was doing a hell lot of self-justification, but that's cos i dun agree with what you're saying. though being the usual diplomatic person i am, i will never say that in your face.

sometimes i hate myself for thinking the way i think.

i was seriously stunned. i never imagined myself scoring better than them. it was really like WAH. madness i tell you.

oh and i sorta committed to rag. brent asked me ytd to be his rag welfare vice. sounded quite ok so i agreed. so far my commitments next sem are:

stardust
west end meet
rag
internal affairs
publicity (think my role in here wont be very large)
tuition (dylan's mum wants me to be more committed.=X)

add that to academic stuff, and prob one or two competitions, my life wont be too slack anymore. AND i have a freaking 5-day week! hai. think my parents won't like it that i'm so involved in school life AGAIN.

bro sent parents to the airport this morning and i tagged along. slept at 1am and was woken up at 3.15am. had some she bu de feeling especially since the time period is longer this time round. anw i decided to do my part as a 'working' daughter to give them some money to spend, and that was what i did. gave them $50. not much lar, but it's a token. they keep saying it's a miracle i'm giving them.-_-

it's amazing how my past leadership experiences are making people THINK i am capable even though i havent worked directly with them before.

and i'm kinda pissed. i'm working on all the festive days and here you go complaining about how you're working everyday. HELLO. my christmas eve and christmas were spent rotting and now you wanna take up my new year too. yeah i did get more full day breaks but consecutive full shift is madness i tell you.

i'm slightly more angsty these days. not too good. maybe it's a result of meeting difficult customers. ah well.