when life just passes you by

i'm really touched by all the concern people gave me after saturday.=)

THANK YOU!!!

i guess i'm better now. not exactly thinking about anything. i think i just want to make sure i do well in my studies (a lil hard cos i've been slacking all the way!=X) and also spend more time with my friends around me. i can't imagine what life would be like if i didn't have you guys around me.=)

as much as i have rather high expectations of friendships, i think i'm already quite lucky.

i was thinking, have you ever thought of something so hard or maybe even stoning that you can forget what you are doing at the present moment? for eg, miss the bus stop/mrt station you were supposed to alight at even though you weren't asleep? or like you were walking in school and you weren't concentrating and just didn't see your friend who was walking right in front of you though he/she was waving at you?

i used to be so alert, like i'd know whatever that's happening around me. prob observant. but i realised that as i grew older, whenever i'm alone, i'm constantly in a very dreamy state, like i'd just stone/think so much that i nv pay attention to my surroundings.

i think there will come a day when i can just bump into a wall or a person without realising that it/he/she was near. i've been lucky thus far, though i've missed bus stops/mrt stations quite a lot of times before. heh.

oh and i used to be quite good at remembering names/faces, now i fail all the time.

was talking to mel about our friendships for the whole mkt lecture on tues. you know it's amazing how all of us barely met each other 2 months ago and yet there seems to have so many things that have happened amongst us. all the scandals, the tensions, the conflicts, etc. i dun think i was part of any of those mentioned yet, and maybe that's a good thing, but still, it's just amazing. mel and i were saying that we feel that we have all known each other for a long time. i wonder how things will be like when people go overseas for sep, or when people graduate. for now, i shall enjoy uni life as it is.

it's the last week before recess week! time seriously flies. i dun feel like i've learnt a lot but yet there's going to be mid-term tests already.=X and management science's mid-term takes up 45%.=X gosh. until monday, i still didn't have the solver installed in my comp. i think i understand the whole thing a lot better now though. econs is like...i dunno whether to have confidence in it or not. all the indifference curve analysis, i'd just get lost at some point during the explanation and after a while i just dun care.

and not forgetting the projects we have and also my gem's term essay. but i do realise how slack my tutorials are (for eg i dun have to do ALL the mkt individual assignments, and also the econs tutorials), plus i only have 2 mid-term tests.

i think this week is not bad. though i slacked for 3 days before tues, i still managed to do some of my work and understand a lot of things better. settled some of the stuff for maf also. i dunno why but somehow i'm quite happy when i'm doing the stuff. maybe it's the people i'm working with (amusing people like yong'an and michael whom i went shopping with ytd at sheng siong. made my day end off on quite a good note though i was damn sleepy. and not forgetting farah, mel, dong they all.=)) or maybe i miss council/house days too much. heh.

AND dylan's exams are in two weeks' time. i haven gone to his place in a week already. good luck to him/me man. i have to make sure i dun get sacked lar. hopefully recess week would be better.

i love thursdays cos it's my og day!=)