what's the meaning of understanding someone?

life's jokes on people can be very frustrating sometimes. i really hope you won't be beaten, but rather grow stronger cos of that. but i guess it takes time, lots of it. just dun ever lose the belief in yourself. jiayou ba! you'll always have a friend in me, though maybe sometimes i just won't ever understand.=X

the feeling of helplessness.

softball gathering ytd was rather fun. just hung around, played a few games, drank a lil and had good food. didn't talk much, but just sitting around and listening to the rest talk was amusing and entertaining enough.=P the ride home was long and lonely though. 61... reached home at around 1am? died at work today.=X and had to postponed tuition. yet, waited for mum in the car for 1 plus hr. damn hot and humid, and was feeding mosquitoes throughout. what's the difference between this and tuition lar.

quarrelled with my mum till i almost teared in the car over many things this morning. first it was the issue about the khao lak trip, then it led to dad, then led to how i dun understand what they are thinking. have they ever tried understanding me? they THINK they know me. well, felt a lil guilty over some stuff that i said, but i hope i did establish some point. the fact that i've been quiet thus far doesn't mean that i'm happy with everything. i just chose to keep quiet. i guess that's not good in the long run, like now.

do you know that it's not that i want to go out, it's just that i dun want to stay at home? there's a big difference.

at least some stuff are settled now. confirmed my cip trip to khao lak, but have to forego my vietnam trip. i've been wanting to do something meaningful, esp during this long break. i guess this is my chance. and with jun around, i'll definitely feel more comfortable. hope it'll be a good experience for all of us going. =)

it'll be 8 days in thailand for the whole june, plus 2 days in july. heh. 14-19june in khao lak, and 29jun to 2 july in bangkok. lets hope the situation in thailand stabilises soon enough.

ok sleep!