lying on bed.

sometimes i wonder if my existence made/makes any difference or not. home is nowhere happier with me around, so is it even worth the trouble.

hai it's one of those times when i just sink deeply into my own thoughts.

been lying on my bed the whole morning and afternoon today. woke up at midnight and vomitted. went back to sleep, though i couldn't fall asleep till like two hours later, woke up at 11, had some rounds of diarrhoea, then went back to my bed and slept till 3pm. didn't eat anything all the way till 7 plus when i had my dinner. still feeling weird, but i guess i'm fine lar. felt so weak till i had to cancel driving, and had to pay for 1/2 the lesson.=X money wasted. ah well not like i could drive in my state anw.

supposed to prepare for my pp interview, but did nothing. 1 page resume. hai...

my mum and bro are encouraging me not to go for the pp interview. they feel i wouldn't be able to cope with the workload even if i go through the interview (which i highly doubt so). should i just not go and save all that trouble? or should i just try and get the experience. i have no idea seriously. ahhhh

jaslyn bought a bag for me from japan. oh man so nice of her! to think of me even though she's having holiday. awww... and she's been asking me about uni and stuff. even asked what my mum ate during her pregnancy.=X i was insisting that i'm really not smart enough, but she said it's sufficient.=X ah well. nice knowing that she thinks quite highly of me.=)

really really hope i can stay till end june or something. i'm super getting used to the environment here, and people are all damn nice.

have my own laptop now. free one. not as good as my bro's, but i guess it's sufficient. imagine not having to share comp and wait for one again.=)

ok i better go rest soon. my body is still super weak from having minimal food.=X