no more bangkok.

i seriously panicked when ja msged me about the bombings. thought of how our long-awaited plans might be cancelled, how our money might just go to waste cos of that, how all my shopping plans might just disappear, and i was really really sad. how suay can we get? seriously. just 2 days before we go bangkok, bombings occurred.

within a night, so many things happened. woke up with a sms saying the bombings continued, and the bombs hit more tourists attractions. asked around, and generally everyone was fine with going ahead. but my mum was very strongly against it, cos the responsibility she has to hold is really quite great, and i understand that. i couldn't help but started crying. all the excitement, the anticipation, the fun, everything just "poofed" in a night. it's not that i'm being irrational and emotional, it's just that i was really she bu de. but i guess even if we are to go ahead, we won't have a lot of fun, and with our families worrying for us, i suppose the best thing is to postpone it.

what a way to start the new year.

i really hope that isn't a bad sign for the year ahead.=X still can't believe our luck.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok i just needed to vent. spent the whole morning and afternoon settling this whole thing, deciding the date, contacting the hotel, tiger airways, oriental escape, and even rejected to have lunch with cherry. so now decided to go in late june. i REALLY hope nothing goes wrong then.

daddy doesn't want to waste his leave, so my parents and i might just be going malaysia still. lets see how. i never dare to have such high hopes anymore.

hmm but yeah get to meet up with some of them tmr. and with my buddy hongyi! watching confession of pain. like finally i found someone to watch with. there are so many nice movies that i wanna watch, but can't find people to watch with. wanted to watch curse of the golden flower, death note, but when i finally decide to ask around, everyone has already watched. super sad.

have been eating a lot at home these days. ah well nvm. when i start to wear braces, i'll probably eat a lot less.=X self-comforting. argh.

i LOVE the new mayday album! it's really good i must say. chorkiang said he thinks the whole album is good, and i just wanted to listen to it asap, so rushed out to buy the album. heh. but it wasn't a disappointment. i'm starting to like mayday more and more.=)

i think this was the first time i ever felt so disappointed. but i guess we all had no choice. i think i've gotten over it, though it still hurts a little to think about how i could have just been resting now, and looking forward to the trip tmr. no more gifts everyone.=X and maybe i get a chance to go crash during orientation. depends on whether my parents are going malaysia.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

ok i'll not think about it again.